19th of February. 2018. Ibiza
I walk on streets today, in town.
Listening to “permeate and divide” by
Robert Rich, again.
I start by just looking for details I have
never seen in streets I know very well and little by little I enter a new space
within this one.
The awareness of these details changes the
space I walk though, just as if I was,
yet again walking though a new space, like when travelling.
As I sit down to write the experience down,
translating it into words I find myself thinking about presence in the present
and a conversation I had with someone the other day comes to mind in this
state. They were telling me about the importance of being present . I was
thinking, how easy is it for us to trick ourselves in thinking we are present
when we aren´t really? I work on this awareness and it is really difficult to
capture. I felt that somehow it might be linked to letting go.
Not just letting go with no previous work
or pure intention, but more like after an intense discipline and intention,
letting go after that will possibly release you in the now. There is no brain
to rationalise that instance just then, no camera or film to record it. It´s
just stored in the harddrive of
experience.
I guess I know I´m trying to capture the
uncapturable. I know it and still hold that intention, stretching awareness
somehow.
