5th of January 2018. Ibiza.
I walked out today in the same area as
usual, nearby my studio.
I didn´t have the headphones on today.
It was difficult to concentrate again.
I
rescued the sensation I got from my last walk and also disciplined myself to just
look at the details.
Today I kept getting side tracked by the thoughts that
these elements brought.
This always happens to some extent but I can usually
watch the thoughts, but today I seem to keep rescuing myself miles away in
thought and not knowing how I got there. It seem to take hold of me.
I
tried diffused vision for most of the time left and it felt unknown and
undefined. I kept wanting to “understand” the smudges and feeling uneasy with
the space.
Overall it wasn´t a very fulfilling experience today. This might have
been an awkwardness I carried from before and was unable to leave out of it.
Painting was supported by extremely loud
music, may be trying to shut myself up. Mind chatter going on and on in loops.
Unsolved issues munching away my energy. So clearly so!
