27th of August. 2017. Ibiza.
I walk listening to Sleeper track in a loop, over and over again. I must have walked for about 45 minutes and now I sat down in the Coffee 5.0 Hawaii to write while I have a coffee.
Today I have been very attracted to movement this morning. As I walked and felt the waving trees, stretching vehicles, moving bodies, and I am walking in “static-ness”. It felt more than once as if it was all flying by me as if on a film. I wasn´t feeling my body when this happened. I was detached from everything, myself included.
This experience when it happens leaves me feeling weird for a long period of time, sometimes the whole day. This bodily detachment makes it hard for me to relate to others. On one hand I find it special on the other there is a part of me that feels sad or uncomfortable with this feeling.
If I tried to rationalise it to be able to explain how it feels it is almost as if I felt nothingness was sad. It might be when my rational human side meets my spiritual detached side and the human part feels sad to loose the lovely things its attached to and enjoys. I might be totally wrong but it feels something like that.
