7th of September 2017. Ibiza.
Something changed since last Monday when I started to perceive the Labyrinth with logic. I now see some sense in it and I might need to discipline myself away from that, as I do while walking. It´s like when one understands something, it´s really hard to pretend you don´t understand it.
The key tool to get myself away from this habit I guess is to try to find a small flaw in my belief or see the reverse reality. Unbalance the belief.
I now am able to walk with good long moments of detachment and otherworldliness quite on demand. When one tool doesn´t work the next one does, a technique for each state of mood I might be in. When I get my notepad to write it all down, there is very little I can recall to put into words, it seems to go like a dream that fades back in the past “now”. When I get into the work on my piece I call Labyrinth I find my mind is active and playful and tricks me into phenomena. Last month it was different. When I got back from walking I was able to write down more of my impressions and then paint out of habit, just following shapes and shades without my thought taking over. Now the nature of the process has inverted although I try to keep the same discipline.
I also know I´m close to having to having to start a work that will take up most of my time and I won´t be able to dedicate as much time to this discipline and I think I feel distracted by this thought when I´m actually painting.
